In my whole life, I have never felt the true meaning of Christmas more than I did yesterday. Love, light, peace and joy truly blessed our home, because it is so apparent how much we are loved and cared for by so many in this world.
Christmas could have been horrible if we accepted that is
what it would be, but as you know, that just doesn't work for us. Kelci had a
way of dismissing bad things like nobody else I know, we often joke that she
had amnesia when it came to that. You
could be so upset with her about something, and she'd look at you, and
seriously wonder why you could possibly be mad.
She really knew how to let things go, she did not dwell in sadness, and
she usually chose happiness and having fun over all else (at times to the
chagrin of others). Sitting around being sad would dishonor her the most, and
that is something all of us chose not to let happen.
In the quiet moments before everyone else woke up, I shed my
tears for what might have been, for what should be, but settled for what is as
the sun came up and the house began to fill with life and love. We each had are sad moments throughout the
day, which we accepted and allowed, but gratefully they passed quickly. I think this is because we chose to make the
day about celebrating life, love and family and we allowed that and peace and
joy to beat sadness.
It was a relatively quiet, stress free day, no big dinner,
but simple foods that were easy to make and could be picked at when someone had
the urge. We had wine and drinks, for Kelci, and many times throughout the day someone
toasted “to Kelci”. She would have
enjoyed a day like that more than anyone.
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| Michelle, Brian, Kelci in Lake Tahoe Michelle framed this photo as a gift to Brian. It was on our last family vacation together. He had never seen it before, and forgot of it's existance. It's one of the rare photos of the three of them together as young adults. |
Presents weren’t so much on our radar this year, but the
ones we managed were filled with meaning.
They were symbolic of life, love, traditions, creating and keeping
memories, and living life to the fullest with passion, adventure, togetherness,
creativity, peace, and fun. They brought
smiles, excitement, hope and promise for better things to come.
At the end of the day, when we said “Merry Christmas!” we
meant it, and knowing it was indeed a good one, in spite of our sorrows, made
me happier and feel more blessed than I could have ever expected or
imagined. When you truly live in the
moment without expectation or regret, life, even with all its messiness, is
good.
This has been an extremely difficult year for so many, and I
hope that they too can find their way to a little more peace, joy, love and
comfort and that it can help them live well and feel blessed in spite of it
all.
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